Its been one of those.....

Days, weeks, moments ... regardless these last few days have been one of those. I guess I don't even know where to start and I just need to cry and scream and yell and act like my son does when he doesn't get his way. I guess I will start with him and a funny story to kick off this blog... I/We (mostly me) am trying to potty him and we went three days of perfect pottying (minus poop) and no accidents. So last night I put him in the bath and being the multi-tasking mom I have to be I was folding laundry at the same time watching him splash and play. Well he was in there and starting to prune when I went in to soap him up, and to my shock find floaters in the water. Yes, he pooped in the bath. YUCK. I was so grossed out I got him out and he finished his bath with a shower and a sit down on the potty which produced nothing. Well in my logic I figured he was done pottying. No. He walks into my bedrooms squats and pees on my floor. UGH so at this point i go to the other end of the house and grab a diaper and PJs assuming that he would have no more accident; however on my way back I find poo on my kitchen floor!!! UGH I just want to lose it at this point and I start laughing and get him dressed before he leaves me anymore "presents." It was total craziness.

So now ... let me start from the beginning. Its been a rough week, my birthday was Sunday and we are broke so I didn't get anything and I understand. I was still bummed and I have decided I was allowed to be, even if no one else agrees. Then I worked Tuesday night and got home at 630 and Alex decided he was going to get up early. So now I am running on little-to-no sleep with a toddler running around. He got to take out all his toys and not pick them up. Keep in mind, we were working on potty training which consisted of hourly (at least) trips to the bathroom. I was beat and grumpy and didn't want to do anything. Then I realized that I needed to make sure everything cleared the bank and i wasn't too badly over drawn. Well this most be a God blessing moment because I was over drawn, badly, but the house payment didn't get returned YAY.... But I had no money and the cell bill is due. So I, in my exhaustion, put it off until Thursday when Alltel chooses to inform me that I need over $500 (we are behind, long story including numerous fights with Alltel) to keep my service on because the last lady I talked to didn't put her notes on my account and thus the payment plan we worked out two weeks ago wasn't there and now I owed. Well after an hour of fighting, I told the lady I would see what I could do but not to plan on much because money doesn't grow on trees. I am not usually rude to people but when they can't do their jobs and screw me over I get rude and Lance says I use big words, so I probably did. So I went to verizon and switched phone services and have a new number for those who want/need it. Just let me know. The service isn't as good but my cell bill is $70 less a month so now I can pay off Alltel... joy.

Yesterday at work was slow but ok. I registered for school; they don't offer my major of Emergency Management and planning anymore so I changed back to nursing. Which I love but I have to figure out when I am done with my pre-req's how on earth am I going to take a year (well 10 months) off work for full time school and still pay the bills. But, for now, I am going to take this one day at a time and tackle my pre-reqs for the programs, get in and then plan from there. I feel this is what God really wants me to be doing with my life and I need to stay in the right path. Lance then calls me and tells me his mom is in the hospital; she was found passed out, breathing but unresponsive. Long story short on that: they admitted her last night and are doing tests on her heart. No one really knows what is going on and I don't know if they are asking some of the things I am to get answers that I understand with my medical background. So I will be patient and see what happens. I plan on going to see her after work tonight. Please pray.

On the last note for this never ending saga of the week.... Its a week where I have spent a lot of time looking into myself, my past, my relationships, being a mom, all of it. I am coming to terms with we live with the decisions we make, and we should live a no-regret life. If you search that term, tons of stuff comes up; many blogs for this mission to a no-regret life. Its easy to say and hard to live and when the past sometimes sneaks up on you whether it be through email, your own actions, dreams, God's message, whatever it may be; it needs to be faced. You can't get rid of friendships, memories, prayers, hopes, dreams, because there are challenges and road blocks in the way. This is true for nursing school for me.... I don't know that many of you know how hard I have been working and what I gave up when I graduated high school because I didn't have the money.... But sometimes I wonder...... I wouldn't change what I have now, don't get me wrong. I love my life for the most part, I love being a mom, I love it all. These challenges have bettered my relationships and helped me accept God and his path for me.