Technology

Today I decided that I actually like technology. I have been super bummed because I am going to be working Sunday DAYS so I can't go to church. Honestly, I LOVE church; the people, the message, the feeding into my heart with the word of the Lord, its GREAT. So not being able to go totally breaks my heart. Then, today I remembered that our Paston does podcasts! YAY now I can put them on my ipod and listen to them WITH Alex on the road. Maybe thats overly multitasking but thats what mom's do.

Also today, I got to snuggle with my son. I miss those moments from when they are infants ..... I wish I could cherish it all more but sometimes life gets in the way.....

Today...

So I keep promising myself I am going to start explaining myself better; to find an output somewhere somehow. This will be by no means anything intersting. Currently I am on the track to constistly betting my realtionship with God. Its easier said then done with countless difficulties and barriers laying in front of me. Each day I wake up and look to God for my strength to get through my day. I ask for patience, strength, and happiness. Somedays, as you would expect, are better than others.
I have a 19 month old little boy who makes the day AWESOME. Everyday something else is new to him and through being a mom I am discovering myself. I am in a serious relationship with his dad, but to my agony (at times) we are not married. He says hes not ready, I guess I will take it for whats its worth and enjoy being with him and in love. We are all but married, just not the actual MARRIAGE....It is what it is.